CE08

What an incredible camp it was! Fun-filled,full of blessing,full of love,full of JESUS!!! ALLELUIA! It's just really indescribable,speechless....the feeling is still going dub-dub-dub-dub in my heart,missing that feeling.

Anyway,i still believe that Lord Jesus still is within me in the deepest bottom of my heart. AMEN! May the Holy Spirit comes in me always. As well as people in this world that is full of complication,hesitation,confusion,depression. Peace be with you all! Amen.


Peace and love.

to Club Med,Cherating and Thailand

finally,tomorrow will be my day to fly again. And,it's with my AIA business partners again. hahaha! I am going to Club Med from 20th to 22nd Oct,then to Thiland from 23rd to 25th. 26th late evening come back to kuching.

Well,another weekend is here again. Later,i am going to WALTON meeting. ( I really really wish that I can close at least 5units of sales in WALTON! AMEN!)

Yesterday,i was thinking and deeply pondering about my AIA career. What's the reason i want to do my AIA business. It's so many criteria to fulfill. In fact,i don't like that type of work. I rather choose something that's something doesn't have a lot of requirements. Like wise,my credit card sales last time. I did so well that company give me a certification,my colleagues felt and thought that i was craz to leave the compnay after 6months with the income of RM5000 per month. OMG! did i regret??? NO! I never. At the end of the day,i know what i want. I want FREEDOM,i want BREAKFREE.

WISH ME GOOD LUCK AND MA GOD'S BLESSING POUR UPON ME ABUNDANTLY today and forever. AMEN!

sign off...


Peace and love.

weird but true

What's so weird??? Human!!! They are weird people who are just so weird and sometimes so frustrating. I should not be frustrating as it's not my matter. But,it's because they are people i know and i wish to help them. They just close their heart,close their mind.

What's the thing that make these sorts of human weird??? They say,they always say their money isnt enough,never enough. But,when opportunities come,they still think they have the right to choose provided it is a legal business and simple earning. Some more,do we still have the right to choose what we want to earn,how we want to earn in this bad economy situation??? NO!!!!

Money not enough?? Work hard,work smart lah....and try to grab opportunities that come!!! OK??? I just feel i cant bear such kind of human. Should i pity them?? I shouldnt. Because they are too shallow about the way of earning money. They thought they can find easier way to earn money. For me,the are no business that without capital,except Insurance profession and Network Marketing profession or Multi-Level Marketing some people called it.

Anyway,let's just see and wait what's the result will be for those kind of weirdo. Yes,for me they are "weirdo". God bless,weirdo!


Peace and love.

another weekends

Just like most of the weekends,my routines are almost the same. 99%! Either i go to church on saturday early evening or sunday late morning. Then,i go to my parents hawker stall to help them up. In fact,my purpose to help them isnt to help them. But,it's to help me to kill the time and save money. At the same time,i can look at some pretty girls. *devil* And,sometimes can meet friends or people i know go to there to have their dinner or supper. And,many other things that i can't finish writing here or i can't write here. hehehe!

anyway,arent my weekends boring?? No??

When??? WHEN can i get through this boring life. sIgH...! It's truly a realization for me. Like what Master Kung says in his Confusions,"Study the past if you would define the future.". It's 101% exactly right!!! People who are poor today,isnt that they are bad luck. But,because they are lazy and dont want to think a way out of their "bad luck" life. People who are ugly today,isnt that they are not good-looking. But,they dont want to change the way they look at themselves and do something to build up the self-esteem or confidence.

For me,i still have alot alot of changes and improvements to do. I am just still so ordinary. YES,I CAN DO BETTER! I DESERVE THE BEST as Jesus has taken the poor from me and had given me abundant of prosperous!

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Time is flying away

It's so fast that every day isn't enough. And for me who like to go through many trials and errors most of time,doesn't have enough time to change quickly. Makes me exchausted,which i should not be like that.

I SHOULD CHANGE. CHANGE AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE!

DARE TO THINK,DARE TO ACT AND JUST DO IT!!! GO,GO,GO!

PUSH TO THE LIMIT!!!!!!!!! QUICK!!!!

supermodel

haha! my 1st photo post.

YEAH!

FINALLY,i got to log in here after trying so many times with my stupidity. and here,i can create a new post again! HUHUHU~~

*so tired now. but,still like the old me who knows it's wasting time here. But,still want to be here in front of the computer. sIgH...



Peace and love.
(Sunday, Oct 12th 2008, 0121)

How strong i believe

WTF? OMG....how coincident or it may not be coincident. It is a God's arrangement again? Because it is exactly 2 months that i haven't been blogging,i just found out. LOL!

Not shameful to tell,most of the time i believe in fate,i believe in miracle. But yet,i still believe things happen for at least a reason. How it happen??? I just don't want to know. I need all these sound "naive" thingy make me feel happy,feel relax. As the world is full of complication,full of anxiety. I think you also can't help it. That's why sometimes when i were looking to a kid,a child,a toddler,a baby,i found out that they are the happiest creature on earth. They face the world with their purest heart and cleanest mind. Amen!

So,just keep it simple and sweet. Sometimes! KISS.

*listening to "don't let real love pass you by" by Boyz II Men.*



Peace and love.
(Sept 7th 2008 1051,cloudy Sunday morning)

I LOVE CLOUDY DAY!!!!

The hardest thing

I find the hardest thing on earth to do is not saying "I love you", it is also not saying "I'm sorry,dear". But,it is building a relationship. May it be a love relationship,a business relationship,a family relationship. It's so fragile that anyone can break it if we are not careful about it by just hearing the rumors or thinking suspiciously.

In this hardest thing,there is one thing called "trust" is the utmost important. We can trust a person with wholly if the person is worth to trust and don't do foolish thing about us. But,what if he/she doesn't? Hmm.....it is indeed still the hardest thing.


*the thought that suddenly strike when listening to 98 degree's "the hardest thing"*



Peace and love.
(Sept 7th 2008,cloudy sunday morning 1039)

phrase to ponder

"All that we are,is the result that we have thought." - Buddha

"All power is from within and therefore under our control." - Robert Collier


Peace and love.
(July 7th 2008,Monday 0020)

wishes

too many wishes to long for. but,there are a few that must fulfill as soon as possible.

i wish i can get Producer Club Award 2008 from AIA.
i wish i can AT LEAST close US$100,000 for WALTON this year.
i wish i can repair my car air-conditioner and make my car a whole new look in this year.
i wish i can have a saving account of AT LEAST RM5,000 in this year.
i wish God can hear my wishes as He created me. He should know better than me. ALLELUIA!
i wish all my wish above come true by end of this year.

Pray hard to all my wish above. Amen!

Peace and love.
(July 7th 2008,0012)

slowing down

hmm...do i really need to slow down? some people say,"hey,young people...do thing fast,quick..better!","you are young,better do thing quick because time is money. time is money~~","time is everything,young man. just do it fast." ALL THE SAME SAYINGS that telling me to do thing fast and quick.

in fact,i know my limit. i really know my limit and i know what i m doing. i dont simply do a thing without a purpose,ok? i also know that doing thing slowly n too slow isnt good for me,especially in my career,my "rising sun" career. if i dont do it fast,other people will go to grab it. that time,regret is useless.

today,i did roadshow at Boulevard Shopping Mall from 4pm to 930pm. i quite like it and i really have change from last time i did. Mindset change me! I learnt from the past. this time,with the suggestion and help of LKC,it really helped alot. The different was so obvious if compare to Vincent Ong. Haii...what to do? Like LKC said,i really need to become Unit Manager as soon as possible. Then,i can do whatever i want after that. God,listen to my prayer~~!

be quick in a slower pace. what a confused phrase to say. :) YES,be quick and be slow too. I am the owner of myself.

ya,thanks Ah Luk for his ideas or "teaching" about choice ,about focus and the sharpness of it. actually,he refreshed my mind again. accidentally,he taught me something again. haha! Ya,he also said about leadership.

at roadshow,i met Leo,Albert,Icy Lim,Vivian Wong,Joey Wee,Eunice Lee. and,i just know who is Jacky or Jackie. Thanx God that i got new frens again! ;) ALLELUIA!


i've written a messy diary today. -_-


Peace and love.
(June 19th,friday 2238)

too much to help

in life,there are too much to catch up with. even cameras,videos with alot alot of people taking it,recording it. there are still some little things that we cant catch it. what we can do? Just remember it as memories in our heart and mind,or we just forget it. tats all...

life actually is so abstract,it's really an art. some people who enjoy it,say it's beautiful;people who dont like it,say it's cruel.

helpless~


Peace and love.
(June 15th,sunday 1503 (hot afternoon for Father's Day))

BIG APPLE

i've never tried any food that is selling in THE SPRING,kuching! But,i've tried BIG APPLE! i was lucky that everytime i dun have to queue up to buy it. i ate it for free~~HAHAHA! i've tried 5 types of it. it's not good to eat alot. too creamy and fatty. eewww~ lols!

today,i've eaten 3 of it n i've to stop it for today! somemore,i ate a fully chocolateeee one! OMG!!! it's yummy n creamy,but scary!!! FAT! it's ok to pamper ourselves,especially people like me for once in few months. coz i dun like to spend alot yet n i seldom pamper myself. pity of me~~

THANX,BIG APPLE and God!

*i like the weather now,extremely good to stay at home and relax. i need a pretty girl to accompany me. *wink*

Peace and love.
(June 8th,sunday (Still raining,but getting heavy now) 1549)

birthday...

WOW~~~I AM 24 and 1 day old today!!! anyway,i've got the 1st ever great celebration of my birthday in my life. it's nothing special,but considered thumbs up as it's meaningful and simple. yesterday,my birthday we went to DAMAI PURI RESORT & SPA for a day trip after i got some sort of bday lunch at home when i got home after PUBLIC MUTUAL small recruitment seminar.

DAMAI PURI really have some changes from the previous DAMAI BEACH. the room,the swimming pool,the bar,the view. i like it so much~~ya,if the price isnt the problem. hohoho!

in the evening around 745pm,we went to BUNTAL to have dinner.but,seem like allen didnt like the place alot.not only tat,he also didnt like d food there. i thought some others also felt d same. anyway,i paid the d dinner cost RM116!!! HAHAHA! this was the 1st time ever too,i paid so much on food,by cash somemore. i really won myself,out enemy is really ourselves!!! with God's help as well i can win,of course! ALLELUIA!

after tat,we went to PALM GARDEN (packy's mum restaurant) to fulfill su sistas and allen's dream were to eat "KETAM SURI" ("white pokka-dots crab" on red shell). then,we also ordered special fried chicken feets.

later we went back to DAMAI again,thought of wanted to overnight there.but,couldnt do tat. we left at 1130pm from DAMAI. i reached home at 1230am.

THE END OF MY BIRTHDAY happenings...


*from what i can see and predict,this year is a new beginning to me again!!! LOLS~God is with me all the way and always! ALLELUIA~!

Peace and love.
(June 8th,sunday (cloudy in the late morning,and raining in the afternoon) 1344)

wonderful June 2008! (continue part2)

hahaha! as if all the happening in June were great and really so wonderful. And now i just remember that,there was a sad thing happened two days ago. Price of petrol went hiking!!! It'll continue until no time!

Part of it,actually is good too! It's a lesson for some people who like to simply do their spending. spend unnecessary! buying luxuries,buying cars like buying toys,buying those thing that i am quite sure it's not their necessities. if it is,it is simply for their satisfaction and arrogant. siGh~~anyway,hope experience and time would teach them. as what had happened to me since almost two years ago. No,not i am a person who spend lavishly. But,i was in BIG financial problem due to con by a shit,so called "brother"! I had learnt from it~~

So,everything that happened and that is happening,it's at least for a reason! Nothing just happen without any reason. Like you were born in this world,there must be a male and female fucked willingly or unwillingly years or decades ago. Then,you were produced! lols~


Peace and love.
(June 7th,saturday 0909)

wonderful June 2008! (continue)

melissa kung's mum just opened her new shop for kidney dialysis patient. May all the grace of God pours upon her and their family for their contribution and kindness to the needy and society. Amen!

Green Height Mall is going to open on 13th June. Hmm....what's this mall going to offer??? smaller than The Spring,even smaller than The Boulevard. It's going backward of the modernization era,as if. :)

*last nite,allen,alan,suzan,suzie,vincent,korson,andy celebrated m birthday at Superstar Karaoke. Before tat, we had dinner at TONG LO WAN at Crown Square. They gave a quite exclusive pen for me as my present. i love it! as i can use it for my everyday work. Thanks to them again~it's a great celebration for me. I am sure my birthday celebration is going to get better and better every year. Thank God too! ALLELUIA~~~

Peace of love.
(7th June 2008,Saturday 0839)

wonderful June 2008!

yes,it's too many happenings in June 2008. the FIRST most surprised,sad,tensioned and BIG BIG impact in everyone's life that happened was the price of petrol and diesel went up historical highest!!! more than 40% increase!!! the petrol from RM1.92 to RM2.70!!! WOW~~~


the 2nd thing was South Kuching region newly elected a mayor. He's the founder from one of the timber tycoon n has group of companies under him doing construction of buildings.

the 3rd thing was my companies AIA and AHA had changed their logo,marked a new beginning to the companies and myself. For the beginning,AIA came out with many many contests. one of them was lucky draws to get one of the 5 TOYOTA CAMRY G-class!!!! How good is that! I pray hard that one of that CAMRY will be mine!!! Amen!

the 4th thing that happened was and recently made me wondered,all those things were so coincidentally happened. were that really coincident?? For me,there is rarely things happen coincident or never happen. As it's happened for a reason. And,it's God's plan. Ya,God has made me to be born in month of June!!!

the 5th thing,my DOB falls on the same day as Yang Di-Pertuan Agong!!! 7th June!!! and every year so far,Our majesty birthday would just falls between 6th and 8th of June. So,will i have the life of a King too??? LOLS~~

I am sure there are more wonderful things to come in the month of June. Especially,my income!!! I WANT TO GET CAMRY FROM AIA and GET FEW UNITS SALES FROM WALTON!!! AMEN!!! THEN,I CAN PRAISE MORE TO THE LORD. MORE THAN BEFORE,I WILL TELL THE PEOPLE HOW ALMIGHTY IS GOD,HOW AMAZING IS GOD,HOW GENEROUS IS GOD....GOD IS TOO GREAT,TOO....HE IS REALLY INDESCRIBABLE!!!! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA!


Peace and love.
(written on June 5th 2008,0841)

don't quit from our dreams. PLEASE!

People,you who have a dream,who have a desire,please don't quit! For you who never let go of your dream,you will never disappear (quoted from "Yellow").

I somehow got the answer in my life and i didnt really realize it until it's reassured by other successful normal human being,just like everyone of us! Many people who are successful in one way or another,is they never quit. They just keep on trying and trying,they dont care what is going on around them as long as it's right and legal too. Ya,what i want to emphasis here is,the dreams and desires that we must have isnt for war and terrorism. So,it should be the right one,the legal one,the peaceful one.

Then,i hope everyone who got dreams and desires. PLEASE,PLEASE keep it on. Let the flame burns until it brings light to other people's life. Cheers!!!


Peace and love.
(may 29th 2008,0101) *from now onwards i decided to put the date and time here as i dont know why the time and date in blogger.com doesnt showing the right one. :(

Not only just a horoscope tales to me on 29th May 2008 (Thursday)

Focusing on what is holding you back is silly. You must focus more on what can be.

Focusing on what is holding you back or what is missing is not going to get you anywhere! Right now, you need to forget about the things you don't like about your life -- because the more you think about them, the more power you are giving them. So today, put a smile on your face and be confident. And if you can't feel confident, then fake it until you do! If you can convince yourself of your value, then other people will be convinced of it, too -- and things will start changing.

AMEN!


Peace and love.

going to a new chapter

*praying with gratitude in my heart that everything is running fine in my life. Amen. And,i can see that it's getting better and better. I know,there must be something so good is going to happen which i might feel so unreal to believe. Oh~when will it comes???


WOW,time really flies so fast that i didnt blog for two days. recently,i am trying my best to do things slowly but yet effectively with less effort. Got to think some smart ways to do the tasks. anyway,i think i can be getting better and better to make things right and still right if i face it.

does God exist? for me,i feel it does. because i dont think what had happened and is happening in my life now is like well-planned? or coincident? for example,AIA is asking to recruit people in month of May for the passport in order to get RM1000. So,i dont give myself pressure anymore to do the job. I just let it be. But,it's like suddenly last Saturday (24th May) i got two potential friends to recruit (Ivan Sim,and Fernandez Joefrey). Now,i wish they can join me! Amen.

and,and tomorrow Wednesday night (28th May) WALTON is going to held a seminar in Hilton. I suddenly felt that i can easily invite people to go there and i m sure there be at least 1 or 2 couples will go and few other individuals are going too, upon my invitation. Ooh,how amazing is that??? It's like i discovered a formula to do my works. It's the Power of Relaxation,as i try to be relaxed when doing my job. in the end,i still can get my job done. Amen.

lastly,i hope i can close a case for insurance in order to get a motivation book from my respective mentor,Mr. LKC! Amen.


Peace and love.

work smart and relax

*attended SARBEX FAIR today. got few leads/prospects from there. YEAH! May God's strength to close sales from some of them. Amen.

from now onwards,i decided to work smart n sometimes hard,but RELAX. because i feel that i might get high-blood pressure (hypertension) or even worse,i will get STROKE at early age like late 20s. OH,may God's powerful healing hands heals upon me. Amen. I swear to God i'll not work without consider about my health anymore,i swear!

i want to live healthily and get the genetic sickness as late as possible. AMEN. (because i know i cannot run away from hypertension and diabetic due to my both parents got that too :|) anyway,just keep in prayer always. Amen.

Now,i can see how mighty,how powerful,how strong,how generous,how merciful,how good,how great is God. He's indescribable,He is extremely super-duper mighty!!! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA! No one can compares that for He's the really only and the only ONE! ALLELUIA! He's the King of Kings,He's the Lord of Lords,He's the best of the best and still the extremely best!!! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA!

Lord Jesus Christ,only Thou can bring me near to God. So,please help me! Please help me to make me sleep soundly tonight. I want to feel relax totally. Forget about everything to go into Your land of happiness. Heavenly happy and away from worries and sadness. ALLELUIA!

God,i cant stop to praise You now. I cant stop to fulfill Your wish and will. I hope i can continue on and on. Remind me. Amen.

Peace and love. (Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit,help me to make me to sleep soundly and sweetly. Amen.)

challenge

*finally,it rained! after more than a week of hot scorching sun squeezing his energy.

yesterday,my first day i started my work after falled sick for 3 days. ya,it's a good start and i learned alot alot of new things which could be used in my career path from today onwards. but,everything starts with a small step like a cute baby tender step on the sand. Hmmm...

i met my mentor and who is my "expensive person" (gui-ren) again after more than a year i didn't really discuss about my career matter with him. he recalled me back of something again...THANX,Mr. LKC!

so,i tried to put myself in relax mode as didn't want to push myself too hard to think and work anymore. don't want to torture my body n mind in a way some more. Health is something money can't buy. would i remember this always? lols!

i jz chat with xu jie (amy) just now. one of the thing i told her was,we might not be friend again some day. she asked me why? i just insisted not to tell her as i don't have the solid evidence. i can't tell,but what made me to that judgment was because i found out we got too much different in thoughts currently. ya,it's undeniable that she was a foreigner in people's place for so long,especially london. she has too much things that i can't accept. i just can't yet,i would say.
and,if one day i can catch up with that differences. then,we might continue to be friend. do i think i can? HAHA! of which i think it's not enough time for me to do so anymore. so,let the time tell. this is what i told her as well. God bless her...

this is the diary for me today. i think. (yes,i have too much uncertainties about me again....usual)


Peace and love.

music.cry

i am an emotional person especially when i m very weak in my heart and mind. music can soothe me down,music can motivates me,music can recalls my memories,music can breaks my heart...so,this is how strong and important a music is that plays in my life. Music can makes me to start my tears,as well as to stop my tears. It can be a happy happy tears or sad tears.

In the end,music is my soul. and,tears that flows down my cheeks make me feel so comfortable in my heart. It washes away my worries and takes away my burdens,at least temporary if it's not for permanent.

Peace and love.

love

Other way of thinking. do u ever think like if something bad happened,actually it's not that way? In fact,everything in this world is full of "love", everywhere is full of "love". Just there are too much negative words are created,made us think negatively. hmm....may be u don't know what i mean. i also don't want to elaborate or explain it too much. It's ok...! too deep? never mind,it's for my own reading in the future,may be after few months,few years later. or may be few decades later?? Who knows?

ok...continue. LOVE is happening to everyone,in everyone's heart and mind. bad person and good person,thief and police,criminal and victims. Why? Thief snatches things because they loves your things and they loves the excitement of doing that. Police loves to catch the thief because that's their job. If they don't do so,they can't get promotion and can't get their salary increases. Gangster loves to fight and be the king because they loves to be like Mohd. Ali (they can't) and loves to be like the ruler or emperor or sultan (they can't).

So,everything got a reason to support. and,the root of every reasons comes from "love". For me,i love to be sucked,i love to listen to music,i love to watch movies,i love to do bad things. Ya,i don't mean bad things are "bad" things,okay?? it's just because of the rules and regulations has been set by the authorities and governments,we don't follow it. it becomes "bad" things (it's only for those morons who need to follow and be the guidance in what they are doing).

Let's put clubbing for example. Is clubbing a bad things? No!!! Is club,pub or bar a bad place to hang around? No!!! But,why there are bouncers or security guards there to look after the place. It's because the morons like to misuse it. They are selfish or self-centered. The morons like to fight there,selling drugs there....etc.

Last sentence. Everything that happens is because of the one and the only one powerful word "LOVE".

Peace and love.

*p/s: most of the sentence that i've written above can be argued,in fact. But,who cares? If we accept and agree with it,we take as advice. Or else,we forget it until we experience and feel it one day.

Oowwh...

I forgot to do an official launch of the blog to myself. It's ok,the previous entries were a soft launch for me.

Deng...Deng....Deng....This is the new place for me to do something i like. Hopefully,it will be my life companion no matter rain or shine. It will carries me on through my sadness or happiness,my up and down.

May God bless this place with love and full of prosperities in whatever i wish. Amen.

today

today,i discovered new thing in life again. SiGh~~(again,i m sighing. but,hope it's not too late) what i've discovered? i finally found older and elderly people especially 40's and above most of the time got their words correctly. Hence,we shouldn't argue it anymore (youngsters n teenagers out there,please be obedient. you'll realize it some day).

i should not be too rushed to fulfill my achievements and dreams in my life anymore. it's not worthy IF i sacrifice my health and life to earn the money to achieve my desires. Ya,it's true that i need to take a slower pace than previous days to enjoy some breeze whispers into my ears,the sunshine that provides me Vitamin D,the green leaves that comfort my eyes....

i should start a new life. brand new life. renewal of life. i should surrender to God. for the past two years,i have been trying to be friend with the devil. the devil indeed is myself as well,as i keep fighting with myself. how can i do that?? stupid me...haiii. how cruel i did that to myself,right? stupid,fool,dump,moron. LOL~~enough of cursing myself,no? ok,you add on it! THE BIGGEST ENEMY IS OUR LIFE IS,OURSELF! No,you don't have to get other answer anymore. This is the definite answer.

In fact,there are alot and indefinite arguements to judge,to debate,to fight under this amazing incredible universe. So,want to fight for it?? For me,i don't want anymore. But....but,i will still extend my help to whoever and whatever i can help with what i can afford. Yes,only if i can and i care because i can't bother too much anymore. If my body burns by fire....i might let it be (this is how i face my world now,don't bother anymore.) No air, breathless...(haha,what a coincident. these are among the two hottest songs at my place here now.)

Peace and love.

sick

sick of my body, sick of my life, sick of m career, sick of my relationship, sick of the world, sick of the natural disaster,sick of everything. the things that can be seen always,and long for eternity by human being always make people sick. Why? why? WhY? WHY? wHy? ????

is there anything that can last for ever and ever. tats all? God? Yes,it's undeniable that God is the answer (i m not trying to be religious here). like me,when there is hopeless,the pain is sucked into my bone,i got nowhere to go anymore. then,God is the person i call for. siGh~~